I am my journey

For years my mom has asked my to write a book about my life as a first generation, albeit tail end, PKU patient, a depression sufferer, a domestic violence survivor, a female disabled traveler and now a pageant queen, but I’ve avoiding doing it. I don’t know where to start or where to end. I feel like a memoir should have an ending and I’m not finished…yet. So, I decided on a blog.

I have sat down to write this first entry so many times, but I never actually do it. I’m not sure why, but in some ways I do know why. The things I have to say not everyone wants to nor are they prepared to hear. My life has never been easy. I was never an “easy child” nor am I an “easy adult.” My life, however, is my own. I treasure every moment of it. I wouldn’t trade it for the world or any “cure” for that matter. This life has made me; led me to who I am now. Is this who or where I thought I would be 20 years ago, 10 years ago, or even 5 years ago? No.

So what has this life made me? A Queen. Not only on a stage, but in life. As Oprah Winfrey said “A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness.” I have failed at things, everyone has something they’ve failed at and will fail at. It’s how you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and go again that matters.

I have my faith. To some that doesn’t mean much, but to me it’s means almost everything. My faith is in me as much as is it in GOD.

“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase. “ Martin Luther King, Jr.

6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” James 1:6.

God made me with a purpose. Sometimes I think I know what that purpose is and others that purpose is sorta thrust onto me. People think life is about where you end up, it’s not; it’s how you get there. Mine many be the road less traveled, but it’s my road, my story and my life. 

I want to thank those that have chosen to follow my story. I hope some of what I say helps you, but I’m doing this more for myself. I need to get it out and maybe someday I’ll fill in the blanks and put it into book form, but for now it’s all about the journey.

 

 

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3 thoughts on “I am my journey

  1. This is a great thing you’re doing Angie.. I know you say there are people out there who wouldn’t care what you have to say, but I just want you to know I myself, ams very invested.. The words you use in your blog captivate me, n draws me in to wanting to read more. I struggle as you do in similar areas of your life. I just wanna let you know I think you are an amazing, highly intelligent lady, and I hope you do write that book someday.. Right now in my life I struggle with faith, n connecting to God like I used to do long ago… I have no faith in myself, but all the faith in the world when it comes to my friends..
    I looking forward to reading more of your blog. Love you Angie. From. Callie, aka Tiffany..

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    1. Tiffany (Callie). Thank you for all your love and support. I treasure you always. ALOT of times when I write thoughts of you creep into my head. I pray for you daily. Can I offer some advice? Although it’s an area I struggle with too, faith in yourself is paramount. Faith in God is essential to faith in yourself. You have to believe you, too, were made with a purpose. That may not be the purpose you see in yourself right now, but I pray you find that soon. As far as faith in your friends, is God not your friend too? He is the friend that never leaves you once you have accepted Him fully into your life. He is that friend that is always there surrounding you with His love, protection and strength.

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      1. Aww thank you for your kind words. You do make sense when you say is God not my friend.. Yes he is. I don’t know why I’ve pulled away from him, maybe it’s the state e of mind I’m in.. I probably shouldn’t make excuses I know. Thank you for praying for me, that means alot Angie. Keep writing, and I look forward to your next entry in your blog. Love ya girl

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